Taking Baby Steps to Actively Recover from a Pornography Addiction

In my last post I discussed how an addiction to pornography changes an individual's brain. The brain is very resilient. Brain scans of individuals during an addiction can be compared with scans after an individual has stopped exposing themselves to pornography. The scans show a huge change after just a few weeks. My point with all this is that an addict can reprogram their brain. Abstaining from pornography in all its forms is part of this, but an addict must replace the negative thoughts and actions with positive ones.
I have been "sober" for about 3 weeks now. I feel great. I have been working very hard to do everything I can to beat this addiction. I have tried many times to change. It is at times like these that I usually become complacent. I feel like I have finally overcome the addiction and I let my guard down. This will lead me to slipping up. I missed several days of blogging because I have become complacent. My wife has a very hard time trusting me. While she has known about my addiction for many years now, I still have lied to her many times about my actions. This addiction has made me a very selfish person. It is hard for me to find joy in the things that would make a normal person happy.
Addiction recovery is an active process. I have to regularly evaluate myself to see how I am doing. Am I magnifying my callings? Am I trying to help others? Am I reading the scriptures and praying? Am I spending quality time with my family away from the TV or my iPhone? These are all things I struggle with. If my wife sees me making improvements in these areas, she will be able to begin trusting me. I will never be able to make improvements in these areas while indulging in pornography. Because of my selfishness it is very hard to change. I am taking baby steps. Today my wife asked me to do something for her. I had a legitimate reason to not do it. I initially told her I wouldn't do it. But then I realized what was really motivating me to not help her was my selfishness. I decided this was a good opportunity to show her that I am trying to change. It was a good time to show her though my actions that I love her. It was a very small thing but she has told me many times it is the small things that matter.

B.